*Question* – Beloved Osho, The other day you talked so beautifully about
the sadness which follows the first experience of our innermost silence.
Is it necessarily so, that when I first experience this silence, I also
feel with my whole being that I am absolutely alone on my journey?
*Osho* – Aloneness is also one of the fundamental experiences as you enter
silence. In silence there is nobody else, you are simply alone. The deeper
your silence will be, thoughts will be gone, emotions will be gone,
sentiments will be gone — just pure being, a flame of light, burning
alone. One can get scared because we are so much accustomed to living with
people — in the crowd, in the marketplace, in all kinds of relationships.
You may not be aware that in all these relationships — with friends, with
your husbands, with your wives, with your children, with your parents — you
are basically trying to avoid the experience of aloneness. These are
strategies so that you are always with somebody.
It is a well-known fact, psychologically established, that if a person is
left alone in isolation, after seven days he starts talking… a little like
whispering. For seven days he keeps talking inside, keeps himself engaged in
the mind, but then it becomes too much — things start coming out of his mind
through his mouth and he starts whispering.
After fourteen days you can hear him clearly, what he is saying. After
twenty-one days he does not bother about anybody, he has gone insane; now he
is talking to walls, to pillars, “Hello friend, how are you?” — to a pillar,
hugging a pillar! And this is true not about somebody special, it is true
about everybody. He is trying to find some relationship. If he cannot find
it in reality, he will create a hallucination.
You will see: just stand by the side of the road and watch people going from
the office to the house, and you will be surprised. They are alone —
although there is a crowd all around — but they are talking to themselves.
They are making gestures, they are telling somebody something… because the
crowd around them is not related to them. They are alone in the crowd, so
they are trying to create their own illusion. Maybe they are talking to
their wife, to their boss — there are many things which cannot be said but
right now they can say them. In front of the wife they cannot say it, but in
this crowd, where everybody is engaged in his own thing, everybody is doing
his own thing, they can say things to the wife. Nobody is listening, and at
least one thing is certain — the wife is not there! But they need the wife,
they need someone to talk to.
And after thirty days of isolation, a dramatic change happens: it is not
only one-sided; it is not only that they are talking to the pillar, the
pillar also starts talking to them! They do both things: first, “Hello, how
are you?” and then, “I am good. I am fine, doing well.” They answer from the
side of the pillar too — in a different voice. Now they have created a world
of their own, they are no longer alone. No madman is alone.
Either you are mad or not. If you don’t know aloneness, there is something
of madness in you. Only pure aloneness gives you a clean sanity. You don’t
need the other; the dependence on the other is no more there, you are enough
unto yourself. Language is meaningless because language is a medium to
relate with the other. The moment you are no longer dependent on the other,
language is meaningless, words are meaningless.
In your silence — when there are no words, no language, nobody else is
present — you are getting in tune with existence. This serenity, this
silence, this aloneness will bring you immense rewards.
It will allow you to grow to your full potential. For the first time you
will be an individual, for the first time you will have the touch and the
taste of freedom, and for the first time the immensity, the unboundedness of
existence will be yours with all its blissfulness.
So whatever happens in silence — either sadness or aloneness — remember, in
silence nothing wrong can ever happen. Whatever happens is going to enhance
the beauty of it, deepen the charm of it; anything that happens will bring
more and more flowers, more and more fragrance to it.
Rejoice! Whatever happens in silence is your friend, it is really your bosom
friend. It is going to take you to the ultimate peak of ecstasies.
Source – Osho Book “Beyond Enlightenment”
